like a dream

i am just trying to keep my head above water

Thoughts

I realized why I hate you so much. 

Its because deep down, I know you have a chance with him while I have none. I will always be the friend, plus, its impossible for me to do anything given previous events.

Its hard to watch you flirt openly, and joke about being with him, when I know that you actually could have him. He actually could fall for you.

He will never fall for me.